neverasomeday

Finshed AP Chem report but I get the feeling like it is kinda not well done. Hmm.. Shall check it again soon. Just did CRS practice in the afternoon, didn't quite get results I wanted but kinda worth while, at least I know where my bad points are.

Who has truly been there for me? Who can I really confide in?

Others see my smile, you see my sorrow within. Others see my patience, you see my anger within. Others see my joy, you see my hurts.
It is in you, Lord whom I can really confide in.

Such simple word yet strong. The word "useless". Familiar? Sometimes we are the ones that use it on ourselves.

"you are so useless, why can't you solve such simple problems?"
"I am so useless, I can't do anything to help at all."

Are we really capable of not doing things? Sometimes it is not that we are useless, sometimes it is just because we fail in that area which others or ourselves that had high expectations on ourselves.

Imagine a cup with lots of holes, some holes are already patch. Some holes are small which some are big. Water is being poured in, but it leaked out from the holes. What I am trying to say here is, big holes are like areas we are weak in, things just don't go the way we think it suppose to be. Small holes are like areas where we expects too much from ourselves, holes is still holes whether big or small water still leak. Patch up holes are like areas we are weak in and conquered. We got to patch up all the holes we have. How? By trying our best over and over again, learning from our mistakes. Don't put too much expectations that we kill ourselves when we fail, or too low to the extent of low self-esteem.

We are not useless. Sometimes holes seems impossible to be patch. But God is there. He is always there. Get HIm to guie you from the beginnning and towards the end you will see victory.

We are like mathematics. We are 0, when we don't wanna do our best or don't believe in ourselves. We are 1, when we start to believe in ourselves and do our best. God is infinity. So by getting God to guide us. It is like infinity x 1 = infinity.

Funny as it seems, it reflects on many people. We want to live a life fulfiling and really perfectly, or do something we can be proud of before we go or to people we really love. Many times, we set goals in our life or rather our mind to accomplish something, but something comes in out way. Like a wall blocking a one way path. Sometimes we sit infront of it waiting for the wall to go away. There are people that tries to climb over and manage to cross over, there are some that fall and give up. There are also some that find alternative ways, that is to walk around it. Having goals is like something that spurs us, but to overcome hurdle between us and our goal is something that destroy the motivation but if we cross the hurdle it spurs us further to go on.
Some people give up along the way, some people even though meets the obstacle and fail they just kept trying and not give up.
So it all comes down to how you view the obstacles in life.